So much has been on my mind lately. My deployment, getting married, missing Jaimie. I am starting to get more apprehensive about going to Iraq. It's crazy to think that I am actually going off to war. I fear I wont be as affective as I am trained to be. I fear I will buckle under what ever pressure is present. I fear I may not come back in one piece, if at all. I know Jaimie has a hard time with me going, but I am thankful for the support she gives me. I use to think that I would be better off going as a single man, but I now know that going as a man who is loved by such a great woman I have a much better chance of making it back home safe and sound. I love you so much Jaimie, and I promise I will do every thing in my power to come back to you! I need to, you are my life, my every thing, my true love. I love you